Sunday, August 2, 2015

Moving On: Without Her, For Her

Now, I have written a short story from a young man's perspective.

Moving On: Without Her, For Her.

I look out the window of the old burger place toward the old highway. This had to be my third meal in a row that tasted like pure grease. My mind just sort of feels blank. I’ve been on the road for two days in my beat up truck, heading for Texas. Everything just sort of hurts as I think about where I’m going. I think about her. I think about how the girl I loved would never live out her dream. I remember how she laughed. I remember how she cried. I remember the pain in her eyes when she told me to “be brave”. I remember how she slipped out of this life to the whirl of the heart monitor and the panic of the doctors. I remember the pain that’s been eating away at me ever since.
“Hey buddy, you alright?” Some man at another table breaks me out of my thoughts.
I realize I had started crying. Startled by the unwanted attention, I quickly wipe away those tears, embarrassed at my emotions. I turn, ready to tell the man to mind his own business. But then, well, the guy had his kids with him. She and I would never be able to have kids now. I choose instead just to wave him off as I stand to leave.
I groan as I walk outside. My legs had those “you’ve been sitting for 5 ½ hours straight” kind of pain and stiffness. To top that off, I didn’t want to get back in that car any time soon, and I felt bad at my burst of anger toward that guy. It’s not every day you run into someone who would go out of their way to help a stranger. She was always quick to help others who might be in need. She was always a beautiful example.
I walk over to the gas station to grab some snacks for the road. At least they might have some healthier options than the burger joint. An electronic bell sounds as I pull open the door. The place smells of cigarette, gum, and Slurpees. I maneuver my way around the other customers to grab some granola and pretzels.
“So, where ya headed?” The cashier asks lightheartedly.
I just barely manage to say “Dallas”. She had chosen Dallas for our future home. Now it would be mine, but not hers. Tears threaten to start again. I throw in a pack of gum, pay in cash, and head out before the guy can ask me anymore questions.
“Have a good day!” the cashier calls out as I leave.
So many people around me are happy. The other customers looking at the candy aisle, a trucker who pulled in just as he was about to run out of gas, a young college student dancing in her car to some unheard music. Excitement, relief, and joy. Everything I used to feel when I looked at her.
A dog barks at me across the parking lot as it take a run. She and I had always wanted a dog. A dog would still be good for me, but it wouldn’t be ours. The house I bought would be great for a dog. The house I would never get to share with her.
It’s strange. Just before I started thinking about things at the burger place, I had been doing fine. I take a deep breath and sigh. I lean against the side of my truck and stare at the sky. To say I missed her was an understatement. My very soul yearned for her. My mind could not be moved from the memory of her. She was happy, creative, loving, beautiful. I want her back as much as a drowning man wants air.

Still, I climb back into my truck, start it up and head back to the highway. I say a prayer in my heart that I can be strong. I keep moving because I am determined. I will complete her dreams when she can’t. Because even when she’s gone, she is still, and forever, my wife.

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Sneak Peak at the Book!




  Scarlet’s
      Quest                                          By Tabatha Keeler 

Copyright 2011 ©

Prologue
Escape

     That fateful night was dark, full of despair and ruin, screams and cries for loved ones, moans of death, the clash of weapons, and the sounds of lives changing forever in the kingdom of Alizarin.
     The first of all these changes of fate occurred when Lady Abigail, a lady in waiting, burst into the Queen’s bedchamber, with news that would mark the beginning of the end.
     “What is it?” the queen asked fearfully; she had not slept at all that night. Her husband, the king, was said to be on the verge of death and her kingdom at the brink of war.
     “I came as soon as I could.” Lady Abigail panted hard.
    Queen Cerise begged, “Pray, tell me what you have to say!” while getting out of her bed so as to be able to concentrate more on what her panting and red-in-the-face lady in waiting was about to say. “Is it time? Is my husband about to die? Please, I must go him, before it is too late!”
     “I am most sorry, my Queen,” Lady Abigail muttered, bowing her head in a slow curtsy, “your husband, King Elvin, is already dead. The physicians only allowed me to come to you now.”
     These words shocked Cerise. “What? When? No, no! Why didn’t you call me?! You were supposed to call me! Wha-?” The queen collapsed on the floor is horrendous sobs.
     Elvin had been sick for quite some time, beginning when a large, blood-red lump began to grow on the side of his head, which caused the young King to have problems with communicating and memory. The court physicians had tried to pierce the bump once but resulted only in soaking Elvin in a goblet amount of his own blood and causing a terrible infection to top it off.
     And now, Elvin’s heart had stopped forever, and Cerise had not been there to comfort him. They had been married for just six years. After many difficult miscarriages and stillborns, Cerise had finally conceived and delivered a healthy child to mark their love and to provide an heir to the throne. A majority of the Kingdom did not even know the child had been born yet, seeing as she, the queen, was still plump from pregnancy and her husband too sick to publicly present the child to the people.
     Remembering the babe, Lady Abigail exclaimed “Hurry, your majesty. For surely you must leave the country now, along with your child, if you wish to survive this oncoming war!”
     Cerise leapt up furiously, as her emotions immediately turned from sorrow to passionate anger.
     “How dare you speak to me in that way! How dare you keep me from seeing my own husband when he needed me most! You failed to call me to his deathbed; the least you can do is let me mourn!” Cerise physically shook with anger; her hands curled tightly into fists and her heart pounding with adrenaline. She would probably never hit anyone, but she still did not trust her own actions.
     Lady Abigail squirmed in fear but reminded the queen that “The castle’s ancient magic will fail to protect the kingdom as of the king’s death.”
     The queen knew this was true and that a foreign kingdom had already been trying to force their way into the surrounding areas. But still, Cerise was so heartbroken. She picked herself up and went with Lady Abigail.
     The castle had, and still has, a spell on it. Legend says the ancient magic had been cast by the elves of old, from whom the royal bloodline had originated. The only record of what the spell did was a very simple phrase: whenever a good ruler is ruling, the kingdom will be well. Few doubted the story for whenever the ruler was of good heart, the kingdom of Alizarin truly did flourish and opposing kingdoms could never cross the boarders. Because of the king’s death, the spell would be lifted until another good ruler came to power.
     During the King’s months of sickness, the army of the neighboring Lord Kayworth had been fighting to obtain control of the tiny yet very prosperous kingdom of Alizarin. While good King Elvin’s heart still beat, the castle had been protected. But as of his death, Lord Kayworth’s army surged forward, and nothing could stop them.
     The walls of the castle boomed with the sound of the oncoming army, which was accented by the sound of the looming storm outside and the cries of gentle ladies running through the halls, knowing not what to do.
     Cerise and Lady Abigail ran to the nursery door but found it immovable.
     “No!” Cerise cried, “No, no! Fate will not take any more of my family!” She beat the door with her fists and pulled with all her might. “Cruel fate, you shall only take her from my own dead arms. Someone open this door!”
     Lady Abigail muttered fiercely to her, “Stop your majesty! The servants’ entrance may still be yet unbolted. Why none in there will unlock the door is a mystery, but you must calm down!” Cerise was so surprised at Lady Abigail’s tone that she stared at the young woman for a moment or two before dashing over to a heavy wooden door reserved for servants.
     She found it unlocked, and the two hurried through the servants’ entrance only to find the cambers entirely empty, save the little baby, fast asleep in a scarlet cradle fit for a royal child.
     “Where are they? Where is everyone? Why did they leave my baby alone like this?”
     “They left,” Lady Abigail replied evilly, “like you should have done long ago. But now, it’s too late.” Lady Abigail pulled out a key and locked the servants’ door in front of the now horrified Cerise.
     “You sold me out,” Cerise growled as she took up a fire poker and took a swing at the lady in waiting.
     “Sold you?” Lady Abigail growled as she dodged the fire poker. “I was never on your side. Soon Lord Kayworth with be King and I will become his bride. I WILL BE QUEEN!”
     Throwing the poker aside, Cerise tackled Lady Abigail to the ground, causing the traitor to be knocked unconscious as her head slammed into the wall.
     Cerise grabbed the keys and her little baby.
     She ran.
     Down the staircases she ran. Faster and faster till she reached a large stone gargoyle. Cerise felt around its wing until *click* she popped open the hidden panel. Underneath the panel lay a piece of rope that Cerise pulled on, causing the gargoyle to slide open to reveal the royal secret passageway.
     She hurried in while clutching the baby to her breast. She gagged from the foul odors that had built up in the passageway from centuries of disuse.
     Cerise followed the passageway in complete darkness. She held out one of her hands so as to better follow the path but soon let out a screech as something crawled over her fingers, causing her to breakout into a run again.
     The way was mostly straight. Cerise ran until her foot caught on a stone step. She instinctively turned to protect the baby as her momentum carried her to the ground. Her back slammed into the small stone staircase.
     She winced at the pain and tried to look at her little bundle. She could not see anything in the pitch black. The baby had not awoken despite her running, screeching, and crying.
     Terrified, she listen to hear if the baby was still breathing. Little puffs of air still came from the little nose; Cerise sighed with relief as her motherly panic lessened.
    Crawling up the steps, she reached a lightweight panel above her head. It was then that she begin to think frantically over everything that had just happened. How could she have been so stupid? She should have looked for a few faithful servants that might have protected her before running blindly into the dark. And now, what was on the other side of the panel? Was she still in the castle? The Kingdom? The Country? Okay, so the last one was a bit of a stretch. How could she be considered a good Queen when she abandoned her post?
     With her heart filled with despair, she lifted the panel to reveal a disturbing sight. Death of the palace guards lay all around. The sight and smell of it was enough to churn any stomach. The passageway had led her right to the kingdom’s edge where the war had begun. It really was too late. The enemy had come and gone, no longer in sight. Queen Cerise had lost the kingdom.
     Wiping away her tears, Cerise ran as fast as she could toward the weeping forest. Although it was dangerous, it was her only hope for survival.
      Meanwhile, Lord Kayworth was lounging on Alizarin’s throne, declaring himself the new ruler. Lord Kayworth was cunning and smart. He knew how to gain power and how to keep it. He fought on the front lines with his men in order to keep their faithfulness and planned some long speech to tell his newly acquired peasants to keep the revolts to a minimum. Yes, he was good. And he knew that as long as Cerise and the baby lived, there was a chance that someday he would lose his newly acquired kingdom.
     So, he called out the search dogs. If the dogs couldn’t find her, at least the Queen would be scared off for good. In his mind, all the royals were cowards.
      Cerise wandered lost in the weeping forest, forcing herself to think of a plan as the evil spirits of the forest spun her in circles and wailed lamentations in her face. She had once heard of the safest place in the world, a city called Jade. This is where she planned to go if possible. She could remember the day she had learned of Jade perfectly.
     It had been on a warm summer’s day. One of the other girls wanted to go to the library and asked Cerise to accompany her. At that time, Cerise was not royalty. She was simply a woman of high birthright, daughter of the King’s closest friend and confidant.
     Cerise wished to see the towers of books that were said to be held in the enormous library. She was slightly disappointed when she found the towers of books were not towers at all, but normal shelves one would find in any of the castle bedchambers.
     The books were old and dusty. It seemed impossible to find anything, but apparently, that was why the castle had a bookkeeper. Cerise rang the bell, while chewing on her lip. She was nervous in asking for the man’s help; he was said to be very knowledgeable but...
     The man appeared from behind a stack of books. Cerise nearly vomited. The man was the ugliest man Cerise had ever seen, and she had seen a fare few. Half of his teeth were rotten, his hair greasy, his smell unbearable. He had two different colored eyes, one appearing to be glass, and his hands were black with ink. He walked with a stiff leg like he had recently broken it in a bar fight.
     Indeed, the bookkeeper looked more befitted for a pirate’s dungeon then for a castle library. When he spoke, his words were lisped and sounded as though he had been sucking on oil. However, they were not unkind words.
     “What would you be looking for my ladies?” he asked. “A book in particular, a script translated, parchment repair? I can help with all.”
     The other girl asked for a book on local birds. The man deftly found one and then turned to Cerise with a grin.
     “Come now! Surely you must choose a book to read as well!”
     Cerise nervously replied that she whished to know of hidden cities; it was the first thing to pop into her head.
     “A strange request,” the bookkeeper replied, running his thick fingerings through his dark, greasy beard, “but there is only one hidden city and one book that speaks of it. Well, at least that we know of!” He laughed at his own joke and then flipped through his cataloguing system until he came to the section he was apparently looking for.
     “Ah,” he said, “it will be on shelf twenty-seven, and I shall be right over here if you need me.”
     Cerise hastily looked at the shelves for any sort of numbers. Sure enough, small number marks had been carved into the bottom right hand corners of all the selves.
     Leading her friend, Cerise found the book and thanked the bookkeeper. The cover of the book was of a deep purple, but the letters were of a shiny green.
     It read, “The Palace of the Mountains” compiled by travelers.
      Wishing to ask so many questions, the other girl was excited to know why Cerise had wanted to read such a strange yet beautiful looking book. She tried to keep her voice down as she rambled out her questions in order to hide them from the bookkeeper.
     Shushing her, Cerise had opened the book and read from many passages about a hidden city. The city was called Jade, the palace of the mountains, the home of peace, and the protected valley. Whether it was in the mountains or a valley, no one knew. It was said that “all those who went to the city would never wish to return”. However, that was the end of the city’s description.
     So, the two had looked at the different ways to get there. The book told of a ferocious beast which guarded the path to Jade. It also spoke of a wicked river of purple poison that would let no one pass. You had to go the long distance around, for the river would not let any bridges go across nor horses ford. All would burn and be destroyed. Finally, it spoke of mountain passes that were so steep and dangerous that no one had ever returned to tell the tale.
     In the end, both of the girls had decided that they did not wish to leave their home if the path was to be that dangerous.
      Cerise had been so deep in thought that it took her a moment to realize that the spirits were no longer screaming; it was her baby crying in complete terror. It broke Cerise’s heart. She had to get out of these horrible woods.
     Then she saw it. The trees getting thinner. She ran for them, so close to freedom.
     The forest finally ended. Yes, she could see the castle on the horizon and, close by, an old farm house. She began to run for the house only to find a small river suddenly in her way.
     The river was small enough that she felt certain she could cross it, but one step in, she realized her horrible mistake.
     The river sucked her in and under with a powerful force she hadn’t expected it to have.
     Baby. She thought. My Baby!
     With all her might, she threw the baby from the water and onto the bank. She saw the child wriggle on the wet grass and produced one loud scream herself before being sucked under and carried away by the deceptive waters.


Twelve years later

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Guess what!?

So, I'm aweful at getting my book written, but I finished my 10 minute play that's based off the ending of my book "Scarlet's Quest." So, here it is!

Characters
Kayworth: A lion-like man who murdered the previous rulers of the Kingdom of Alizarin, and then named himself king. He now thirsts for the blood of the heir to the throne who disappeared at the time of his takeover, seventeen years earlier. He does not know anything about the heir. He assumes the heir is male.
Scarlet: A strong-willed, eighteen-year-old with long gold hair, rosy cheeks, and scarlet lips. Raised as a village girl, she is strong and fast. She has only recently learned that she is in fact the heir to Alizarin's throne. She has a deep attraction to Sam. With the help of the people, the two have rallied together an army in the attempt to take back the kingdom.
Samson: Otherwise known as Sam. He is in his twenties. He has brown hair and is very buff, having been trained since his youth to be a knight. Sam also has feelings for Scarlet but is nervous about showing his affections because he knows that Scarlet is technically royalty whereas he is a commoner.

[The scene opens to a large mid-evil throne room that has two entrances on either side of the room.The sounds of war boom around Kayworth, who sits on his throne, which is flanked by tall curtains. Two knights drag in Scarlet, who is clothed in armor (although helmet-less) and seems to have passed-out. She is doused with water and awakens.]

Kayworth
Well this is a surprise. A women has led my people to rebel. You've given me a lot of grief, wench. Why do you fight against your King?

Scarlet
You're no king!

Kayworth
Seventeen years I've ruled this land.

Scarlet
And seventeen years--

Kayworth
Don't interrupt me! For all your misdeeds you shall die. A shame to waste such a pretty face. (Scarlet spits at him) And a temper to top it off. (He waves for the guards to take Scarlet away)

Scarlet
So you don't want to know then? To know why we fight against you? You shed innocent blood, ruin families, sack our farms. I never knew my parents, thanks to you!

Kayworth
Really? Are you so determined that I kill you here?

Scarlet
Are you afraid?


Kayworth
Of what? A little brat like you?

Scarlet
Afraid that my blood will forever stain this throne room. That it will always bear my name. I am Scarlet! (Kayworth laughs)

Kayworth
Your head is filled with fanciful thoughts. A fool is born to power. A true King wins it.

Scarlet
And murderers are thrust down to Hell!

Kayworth
And exactly what did you think you were trying to do? Murder for power. You are no different than I save your stupidity.

Scarlet
You glut yourself and your guards while the people starve.

Kayworth
Peasants must be starved into submission. Would you rather I killed everyone? Then whom would I rule and gain from? Like I said, stupid. (a whistle is heard from Sam off stage) To the guards:Bolt the doors.

[One guard lets go of Scarlet to lock the throne room doors. Scarlet quickly twists away from the other guard, groin-kicks him, takes his sword, and kills him. She flees from the other guard who comes after her with his sword. Kayworth simply watches. Scarlet climbs the curtains. Then, Sam kicks open the throne room doors, which never got bolted. This makes both Kayworth and the guard pursuing Scarlet turn. Sam is sweaty and bloody from battle. He is also helmet less.]

Sam
Get away from her.

[Scarlet drops from the curtain with her sword point down onto the distracted guard, thus killing him.]

Kayworth
Shame, that was a half-decent guard. I must get better ones next time. Now, let me guess. The royal baby's all grown up and wants his throne. (Sam and Scarlet stand side by side, with swords pointed at Kayworth) What do they call you boy?

Sam
Wouldn't you like know. You're going to pay for the lives you've ruined Kayworth, if my name isn't Samson, son of Sir Glaucous, knight of Alizarin.
Kayworth
So. The heir of Alizarin sends two children in his place? It's a shame he wouldn't face me himself. No matter, I gained this kingdom by my own strength and so shall I keep it.

Sam
You've grown weak, old-man.

Kayworth
I AM KING! And no son of some worthless knight will ever take that away from me. (Kayworth draws a sword)

Scarlet
How about a Princess?

Kayworth
(Kayworth laughs) You really are just an ignorant female. Oh, and it seems we have company.

[Scarlet and Sam turn around, expecting to see more guards but no one is there. Meanwhile, Kayworth exits hurriedly. Sam takes off after Kayworth. Scarlet remains behind.]

Scarlet
What if he's right? No. He is right. (she sighs) I can't lead this people. And after everything Sam and I have been through to get here, I..I don't want to. No. I can't give up. For my parents, my friends, myself? For Sam, my only love.

[Scarlet turns to leave just as Kayworth steps back into the throne room shutting and locking the door.]

Kayworth
It seems you aren't the only foolish one. So, the heir was a little girl this whole time. How unfortunate, for you rebels that is. One silly girl controlled by... what was it you called him, your “only love?” (Kayworth draws his sword) You have but one escape. You might make it out those doors behind you, or I could kill you before you reached them.

Scarlet
I'm not a coward. If I die, you will be the one to suffer, as I haunt you till the end of your days.

Kayworth
Haunt me?

Scarlet
Yes.

Kayworth
Till the end of my days?


Scarlet
I will!

Kayworth
I don't believe in Spirits.

Scarlet
Perhaps. But I'll haunt you just the same.

Kayworth
Oh dear. That does sound chilling. But what of your “one love”?

Scarlet
He is strong. He will fight on.

Kayworth
No, no. That is not what I meant. I meant, who is to save him from my sword if I kill you? (Pause) That's right girly, you will not be the only one to die.

Scarlet
IF YOU TOUCH HIM--!

Kayworth
You will what? Haunt me till the end of my days? You've already made that oath! No. I will kill you, and then I will kill him, and anyone who dares to challenge me!

Scarlet
Unless I manage to kill you first! (They fight)

Kayworth
Not too bad a swordsmen for a child.

Scarlet
Sam taught me.

Kayworth
Oh the boy who's lost trying to find me out there.

Scarlet
He's not a fool. He'll be here soon enough.

Kayworth
Quite right.

[Kayworth slashes at Scarlet's side, cutting her skin, although not fatally. Scarlet screams in pain. Sam is heard banging on the locked door.]


Sam
Scarlet! SCARLET!!!

[Sam stops pounding the door, running around get to the other doors. Kayworth laughs. He slices Scarlet on the back of her leg where she is exposed by her armor. Scarlet screams louder and collapses to the ground. Kayworth raises his sword to finish her off right as Sam runs in through the other doors.]

Sam
COWARD! (they fight)

Kayworth
You are good.

Sam
My father trained me my whole life so I could kill YOU!

Kayworth
So be it, he shall die as well. (pause) I will kill every last one of you! And you can die next to the kingdom's worthless heir. I'll kill you like I KILLED HER.

[Sam screams as he stabs Kayworth in the stomach.]

Kayworth
(weakly) no, you can't take my kingdom.

[Kayworth swings his sword at Sam which barely misses him. Then, Kayworth dies. Sam hurries to over to Scarlet and cradles her in his arms.]

Scarlet
Sam..I'm sorry.

Sam
Shush. (Sam rips off a piece of clothe from his shirt and binds the wound on Scarlet's leg) You're not to blame.

Scarlet
Did we win?

Sam
Kayworth is dead.

Scarlet
Sam, I deserve to die. I could never lead this people. I could never be a good ruler.


Sam
You don't have to die though!

Scarlet
It's better this way.

Sam
Better or easier? (Pause) We need to bind your side before you lose too much blood. (Sam lifts Scarlet into his arms)

Scarlet
Sam. Sam.

Sam
What?

Scarlet
Sam. Saam.

Sam
What? What is it.

Scarlet
Sa—(scarlet passes out)

Sam
Scarlet!

[Sam quickly lays Scarlet back on the floor. Panicked, Sam quickly takes off his breast plate, and takes off his shirt completely. He uses the shirt to stop the flow of blood on Scarlet's side. Desperate, Sam rips down one of the throne room curtains and uses it to wrap Scarlet as well. He lifts Scarlet's legs.]

Sam
Please Scarlet please! Don't leave me. I never got to tell you just how much... I've always loved you.

Scarlet
(very softly) Sam?

Sam
I'm here. Stay here with me.

Scarlet
(stronger now) Sam? I feel sick.


Sam
I'm sure it will pass.

Scarlet
Sam?

Sam
Yes?

Scarlet
I heard what you said.

Sam
Oh?

Scarlet
I've always loved you too.

Sam
You're a princess. I'm just a knight.

Scarlet
No, you're much more than a knight. You're young, handsome and sweet. And you are my best friend.

Sam
But is that enough?

Scarlet
It's always been enough. Sam, I really love you. And if I make it through this...

Sam
When you make it through this.

Scarlet
Could we be more than friends?

Sam
Miss Scarlet, peasant girl, princess, warrior, and love of my life. Please stay with me now. And if you except, will you marry me?

Scarlet
It took you long enough. Yes. A thousand times yes!

[Sam helps Scarlet to sit up and cradles her in his arms.]

Sam
We'll figure things out. Together.

[They Kiss. The lights go out.]

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Who else gets excited over English?

So this isn't part of my book. For an English assignment I had to write a reply to the poem "To His Coy Mistress." I am really proud of my rough draft and have decided to post it. Tell me what you think! :)

I also posted To his coy mistress so you don't have to go looking it up.

To his Coy Mistress
by Andrew Marvell

Had we but world enough, and time,
This coyness, lady, were no crime.
We would sit down and think which way
To walk, and pass our long love's day;
Thou by the Indian Ganges' side
Shouldst rubies find; I by the tide
Of Humber would complain. I would
Love you ten years before the Flood;
And you should, if you please, refuse
Till the conversion of the Jews.
My vegetable love should grow
Vaster than empires, and more slow.
An hundred years should go to praise
Thine eyes, and on thy forehead gaze;
Two hundred to adore each breast,
But thirty thousand to the rest;
An age at least to every part,
And the last age should show your heart.
For, lady, you deserve this state,
Nor would I love at lower rate.

        But at my back I always hear
Time's winged chariot hurrying near;
And yonder all before us lie
Deserts of vast eternity.
Thy beauty shall no more be found,
Nor, in thy marble vault, shall sound
My echoing song; then worms shall try
That long preserv'd virginity,
And your quaint honour turn to dust,
And into ashes all my lust.
The grave's a fine and private place,
But none I think do there embrace.

        Now therefore, while the youthful hue
Sits on thy skin like morning dew,
And while thy willing soul transpires
At every pore with instant fires,
Now let us sport us while we may;
And now, like am'rous birds of prey,
Rather at once our time devour,
Than languish in his slow-chapp'd power.
Let us roll all our strength, and all
Our sweetness, up into one ball;
And tear our pleasures with rough strife
Thorough the iron gates of life.
Thus, though we cannot make our sun
Stand still, yet we will make him run



Reply to “To His Coy Mistress” 
by Tabatha Keeler (me)

If you would only understand my love, wonderful and gentle sir, you might stop your poetry and end your evil lure. My love does not include only you, though your shining eyes be crystal blue. My heart loves still my family and of my Christianity. You ask of me to scare the sun but what I desire is that from above. Future children wish I for me, and happiness for them broader than the sea. A river, as the Humber and Ganges be, can still be crossed in all honesty. When first met we ‘neath the blossom tree, I wondered if there were any man better than thee. I love you more than rubies shine, and for you, each day, my heart does pine.
But to every wind there is a shadow that falls upon one’s heart. And only those of closest bond does love not tear apart. You praised me much and asked of me what use is of my virginity. Why asketh me of virginity, for my love is worthy of nobility. You claimed that in the grave two may not embrace but neither I think do so behind hell’s gates. If I were to except your plea of me then there is of an utmost surety, that you will end your time, as many do of your kind. Even as the sun does rise, bringing with it a most blessed warmth, so does it set and leave cold whirling in its torrent.
Now, therefore, must this Coyness end and both of us must part. For not another day will I let you play drunkenly with my heart. What care have I if your lust is turned to ashes, so long as I may avoid sin’s bloody lashes. You have proved yourself unworthy so do you think we should stay, surely? I think not. For without lawful marriage, my life shall never be bought.

Friday, June 1, 2012

The End of School!!!

This is it! Only four school days left until I'm no longer a Junior but a senior!!!!! :p really I'm not that excited about it. Those four days are all testing. I got my first high school yearbook and was really disappointed. Besides the personal photo everyone gets, I was only in the yearbook twice and both times I looked awful. >:( Even my personal photo looks bad! Meanwhile, the best friends of the yearbook staff are in there over and over and over! one girls is in there at least 8 times. I'm sick of high school and am ready for college. College means I don't have to be a lifeguard anymore! Plus, I can take classes that I will really enjoy and can drop them whenever I want because it's my money! (well parents money). Senior year is going to drag. Choir is only offered at a fourth period class which is the same time as my A.P. Government class. Gov is mandatory, choir is not. So I never get to experience solo and ensemble. Instead I needed a new first period. My choice was A.P. Spanish or office aid. I already have three A.P. classes so I chose office aid. I hope I like it. :}
Because summer is starting, I don't have piano lessons anymore. I was thinking about singing lessons but I'm nervous about taking them. Cause that might mean changing my availability for work. Meanwhile, I wish I could just sing my heart away. It's the one way I can let my energy out. My new theatre class does not inspire for releasing energy. I want to dance but there are always people around. I can't wait for dance three next year! XD
I wish I had thought about an end of the year party two weeks ago so I could have taken a day off of work but sadly I waited to long. If I have time on the last day of school, maybe I'll do something special before heading out to work. Hopefully i won't have work that day! :)
Looking over what I've said, I see just how negative my life has been lately. A month ago life was great! Well, I'm going to post a cool video I found recently!
http://youtu.be/esW8w0umu6g

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Dollars and Crepes! Oo la la!

I felt like I should write more on my blog, even if I only have one subscriber. Hi Alli!
I've been working on an Movie Preview for Scarlet's Quest and it's been a pain.
But on a brighter note, I was very happy today. Why? I turned down $20.........Well, my job says that I can't except gifts or donations or tips so that was my main reason for turning it down but also because working 2 min.s over the time that I am off work is not worth 20 dollars and there was no way I could take money from a lady who just put on a private birthday party for a 1 year old and let us life guards have Popsicles and tiny sandwiches. I "feel all good inside." It made me think of a song "doing good is a pleasure a joy beyond measure, a blessing of duty and (light, right, life?)
And I loved our partial family reunion tonight at Kim and Davids, the crepes were great! The one person we were missing was Celeste. We miss you!!

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Bubbles, bubbles everywhere yet not a drop to drink

I'm blogging again...
Went to the mall with a gift card and came out with a full gift card and short 40 dollars cash. Turns out the meadows mall does not have a GAP but they do have a very expensive Victoria's Secrete. I did get a free hot-dog on a stick. It was good.
I distaste school. I only need to take 2 classes next year and 3 classes if I want an award. Yet, dispite this, the school district sees it fit to tell me that I must be taking at least 4 classes inorder to be enroled. I am so stressed about what class to take. I can't take Spanish because that would make it my 4th A.P. class. I don't want to take Theatre because I don't learn anything any more. I won't take Foods and Nutrition 2 because they won't be offering it, only Cullenary 1 which is pointless because it is the same thing as Foods and Nutrition 1. I don't know what to do for college and everyone keeps telling me it doesn't matter but it does. I don't want to end up like those others who picked a random major because they had to pay bills. I'm not good at what I am interested in and everything else is either too difficult for me or boring. I'm stressed and no one seems to understand the importance of this decision. No, I'm not picking my major in one night but I would like to at least have some interesting options besides working in Parks and Neighborhood Services for the rest of my life.
The reason I spent 45 dollars today? I needed time to myself where I can relax and see a real me.
I am lonely, so I needed a way to spend life a little happier. At least I did everything in cash so I'm not in debt! :)

:)Neither a borrower nor lender be. :)